*Last weeks pic*
I really don't know what is going on. Why am I at this plateau when, I have only lost 15 lbs and I'm still "overweight" BMI? There really is no explanation. Why is it that what has been working for me for months now is just not working anymore? I have even upped my exercise and no dice. I just don't understand, period.
I need something to knock me over the edge and back on the downward slope. Another week without seeing 155 on the scale will just wreck me. I am already noticing myself falling back into old habits of insulting myself while standing in front of the mirror or finding my progress insufficient.
I don't want to be a downer, but it is just frustrating and heartbreaking. To want something so bad and to work for it, and not get it. Like all of those times I patted myself on the back for choosing a salad for lunch, or refusing to eat "just one piece/bite/taste" or not drinking at happy hour with friends - when I see a gain on the scale I just wish I had do it instead of abstaining so that I could say "well I did have that cupcake" ect. I just can't think of a reason that I am not losing.
I don't even want to think about the horrible, horrible results the scale will bring next weekend. (Weigh in on Monday right after Sunday Easter celebrations).
I'm sorry to all of my followers for the scarcity of my posts recently, but I really hate reporting failure and lately that is all I have had to report. I will try my best to re-set for May. I need a great month to make up for this one.