Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Weigh In 4/18/2010

So I actually did weight in yesterday. I measured and everything and filled in my chart and then really resisted the urge to post. Nothing can describe how I feel right now other then utter discouragement, I can't even bring myself to take photos this week (why since they will look the same - if not worse - then last week?).

April 182011
Weight: 157.6lbs (+1.6)
Body Fat: 31% (+1)
Bust: 36" (0)
Waist: 29.25" (+.25)
Hips: 39.25" (-.25)
Bicep: 11.5" (0)
Thigh: 22.75" (+.25)
Calf: 15" (0)
*Last weeks pic*

Last week I was chipper because I thought that I was back on track, I was down to 156 and moving in the right direction. And then this week: yet another gain.

I really don't know what is going on. Why am I at this plateau when, I have only lost 15 lbs and I'm still  "overweight" BMI? There really is no explanation. Why is it that what has been working for me for months now is just not working anymore? I have even upped my exercise and no dice. I just don't understand, period.

I need something to knock me over the edge and back on the downward slope. Another week without seeing 155 on the scale will just wreck me. I am already noticing myself falling back into old habits of insulting myself while standing in front of the mirror or finding my progress insufficient.

I don't want to be a downer, but it is just frustrating and heartbreaking. To want something so bad and to work for it, and not get it. Like all of those times I patted myself on the back for choosing a salad for lunch, or refusing to eat "just one piece/bite/taste" or not drinking at happy hour with friends - when I see a gain on the scale I just wish I had do it instead of abstaining so that I could say "well I did have that cupcake" ect. I just can't think of a reason that I am not losing.

I don't even want to think about the horrible, horrible results the scale will bring next weekend. (Weigh in on Monday right after Sunday Easter celebrations).

I'm sorry to all of my followers for the scarcity of my posts recently, but I really hate reporting failure and lately that is all I have had to report. I will try my best to re-set for May. I need a great month to make up for this one.


  1. Ellie, don't be so hard on yourself. You have done a wonderful job of losing 15 lbs. !!

    You will get back on track, I know you are strong enough to do that right now girl!!

  2. This isn't a failure. So lets just throw that word right in the trash. Maybe try switching up your workouts? or eating something new? Cutting something back? There are a lot of things that can keep you at a stand still. You know this. That scale also likes to be a punk. Maybe your weight is just clinging on for dear life and then one day it will finally just drop off because it cant hang on any longer... NEVER say failure. You are far far far from that!

    Stop beating yourself up. You are doing amazing and will continue to do so, just stay focused! :)

  3. I think we all fall into this plateau trap. The key is to not fall prey to the actual trap. Keep fighting and don't give up. Here are some suggestions to change things up (and I'm not sure what you're doing to begin with, sEat every 2-3 hours. Taper your calories down as the day goes on with breakfast being your largest calorie meal of the day. Make sure you have a carb, protein, and fat in each meal and snack. Eat at least 5-6 times a day. Possibly eliminate carbs for dinner and your evening snack. If you're upping your workout routine, you need to up your calories. If you're working out too much and not eating enough, you will plateau. These are just thoughts. Just keep on keepin' on. Don't give up. I know (all too well) how easy it is to just give up. I've spent too long doing that myself.

  4. Fair play to you for posting this weeks figures and blog post. To me it shows that despite how unhappy you are at the results, you're not prepared to give up.

    I wish you all the best over the next few weeks. Keep drinking lots of water, eating good and exercising and be proud of everything you've done so far! :)

  5. Everyone hits a plateau and it's all about how you deal with it! If you give up, then that 15 pounds you worked so hard for is down the toilet. Don't give up!!! One day it will hit and the scale will be your friend again.

  6. You are doing a wonderful job. Relax. Sometimes, our bodies just do stupid, stupid things...like...slow down weight-loss wise (I'm there...I'm stuck). The important thing is to not get discouraged and to keep trying...maybe shake things up a little bit by doing a different workout or upping or decreasing calories. You're looking GREAT. Focus on that and on how good you feel. And forget about that stupid BMI crap. It's just ridiculous what they want some people to weigh (I'm supposed to weigh 120 lbs!!! I'd look like a skeleton if I did that!)

  7. I am new to your blog and was looking over your results so far-you are doing really great! How many people said in January they are going to make this their year and lose-then don't. Don't get discouraged, I know you can turn it around. You can do this!!