I have been back and fourth with myself over this and have come to the conclusion that I will not have a weigh in this week.
I had a terrible week last week, and I haven't been having a very good month and a half in general (in the way of weight loss). I feel defeated and discouraged and I just can't bring myself to get on the scale. Particularly because on Sunday I disregarded my diet and ate whatever I wanted and I know that the scale will reflect that and I just can't come to terms with it, especially since I am scared to see yet another gain.
I have been on the diet roller coaster for years, losing 10 or so here and there only to gain it back once things got hard. I have hit a plateau and I need to make sure that I push myself through this and not let it stop me. I have made a promise to myself that there is no turning back.
Sorry to anyone who was looking for my update, but my hope is that by skipping this week and weighing in next week perhaps I can focus more on keeping my resolve and sticking this out instead of being even more discouraged by the results on the scale. I sorta just want to skip over the rest of April and start over in May.
Please know that I have not given up, and I am still working my dangest to reach my goals. I just can't take the heart break of seeing another gain on the scale. Hopefully next week will have better news for me.