I just don't know what to possibly say today.
Ever since I got home from my 2week work trip where I lost 3 lbs I have steadily gained weight. I tipped the scales this morning at 157.6.
157.6?!?!! How could I possibly gain 8 lbs in as many days? That would take some serious work, calorie wise. It just don't make a single lick of sense. I cannot figure it out, what have I done differently? I'm still working out, I'm still eating on plan. I mean I had my usual cheat day, and perhaps I dipped into the cookie jar one too many times, but not enough times to explain an 8lb gain.
I am freaking out right now, I just don't get it. I am angry, frustrated, annoyed, discouraged, and heartbroken. Yes heartbroken. Last week 149.6lbs was a great victory for me, I managed to widdle my weight down to a value I hadn't seen since highschool - a good 7 years ago. I was excited to move onto my next and ultimate goal of being a fit 135lbs. I am watching that slip away, and have no reason to explain why.
I feel let down by my body, that I am trying so hard to lead it in a direction for healthy living and all it wants is to be fat and unhealthy. It has got me scared, scared that the diet I have trusted and that has worked so well up until this point is failing, and I need to find some other nutrition plan to get my weightloss back on track.
I have a million feelings in my head right now, and none of them are positive or hopeful. I know that since getting home things have been very different for me, but I have never blamed stress or anything other then the way I eat or work out for my weight.
I mean everyone says the formula is simple: Calories in - calories out
Not: ((Calories in*Cookies) - Calories out)*(exercise)*(water intake)-(water retention)/(stress)*(PMS)
I just feel lost. It took me a good 3 months to lose 8 lbs. Have I really undone 3 months of work in one week? It seems impossible, especially considering how well I have been doing with my exercise and that I haven't been eating differently at all.
Sorry for all the babble, I just really needed to vent. For the reasons stated above I will not be weighing in this week....
Monday, June 27, 2011
Friday, June 24, 2011
Insanity - Week 3
By now I have already done all of the workout in the first part of Insanity at least once, many I am on my 3rd or 4th go around. Every time I do them I feel like I improving my form, or speed, or endurance.
This past week I had an add on routine called "Cardio Abs" it is a 15-20 minute routine that is meant to be done in addition to another workout. Normally "Pure Cardio" which sucks because I don't feel like doing anything other then passing out after "Pure Cardio" but "Cardio Abs" is a nice routine that focuses on your abs and obliques without any situps. Most of the exercises fixate on keeping your core tight in a plank or sitting position and raising your legs (using your core) its fairly difficult and after doing it for the first time a couple of days ago my abs are still sore from it. But I think I love it =). Something about that burn a few days after a routine reminds me how hard I worked and about the results I will see.
Also last Monday I had my second fit test. My results were:
This past week I had an add on routine called "Cardio Abs" it is a 15-20 minute routine that is meant to be done in addition to another workout. Normally "Pure Cardio" which sucks because I don't feel like doing anything other then passing out after "Pure Cardio" but "Cardio Abs" is a nice routine that focuses on your abs and obliques without any situps. Most of the exercises fixate on keeping your core tight in a plank or sitting position and raising your legs (using your core) its fairly difficult and after doing it for the first time a couple of days ago my abs are still sore from it. But I think I love it =). Something about that burn a few days after a routine reminds me how hard I worked and about the results I will see.
Also last Monday I had my second fit test. My results were:
Switch Kicks : 71 (+12)
Power Jacks : 39 (-5)
Power Knees : 70 (+15)
Power Jumps : 40 (+7)
Globe Jumps : 10 (+1)
Suicide Jumps : 10 (-2)
Push Up Jacks : 14 (+3)
Low Plank Obliques : 48 (+4)
Not bad. A bit disappointed in my power jacks and suicide jumps. I feel like those should not have been less, because if anything I have been getting stronger (just look at the other exercises for proof). If I had to try and explain why I would probably say that I was focusing on form and pacing myself and not on getting the best number I could.
The first week I just saw the exercise and did it until I couldn't anymore. This time I knew what the movement should feel like when done right and focused on that and possibly did not push hard enough to get those extra reps. Next fit test I will know better and just go all out.
So far I have been doing pretty good keeping up with the program. Ever since I got home it has been difficult to find time to do my routines. Now that I am home I have dogs to care for, dinner to cook, chores to take care of. It's a lot of work and it's hard to sneak away for an hour to do a workout. I have been making it work though. Since I got home I have only missed one work out, which I intend to make up later this week.
I thought it would be easy once I got home since my boyfriend was doing the workouts with me, but he gave up after the first week. Which makes me feel awesome for sticking with it, but also bummed that I lost my work out buddy. I guess I just have to be my own buddy - like I have been for the past 6 months.
I have a little less then 2 weeks of phase 1 left. Then I have a recovery week (a lot of stretching and yoga for core and blance) and then enter 4 weeks of phase 2 "Insanity - Max". I am not going to lie, I am a bit worried about phase 2. I am considering extending phase 1 for another month since I still struggle with phase 1 moves, but we will see.
So on and so forth. Can't wait to see my body transform - I'm still waiting.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Weigh In 6/19/11
Weigh In - 3 days late. My life has been turned upside down since I got home. I have been a busy bee running around and doing tons of chores and errands trying to get things back in order. Being gone for 2 weeks really throws a kink in things.
Here are my weigh in results:
Here are my weigh in results:
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Wow! The precautions I took while away on travel really seemed to have paid off. I am officially down past 150, and have officially lost more then 20lbs! My first goal has been accomplished - sure it took me 6 months, but still I got it done, and thats more then I can say for the past 6 years of my life.
I feel fantastic about my results (in the numbers). I have been working hard to eat right and am now about 2 weeks into my "Insanity" workout routine. Not sure I am seeing massive physical results from the program, since I can't really put my finger on anything that looks different from last week, but I feel tighter, and stronger, and I am getting better at the work out routines.
All I can do is stay strong, and keep up with my diet and exercise. Onto my new goal - 130! Another 20lbs, this one will probably take a lot more than 6 months to achieve but I'm feeling motivated and I know if I stick with the plan and don't falter I will make it there.
Go Me!
All I can do is stay strong, and keep up with my diet and exercise. Onto my new goal - 130! Another 20lbs, this one will probably take a lot more than 6 months to achieve but I'm feeling motivated and I know if I stick with the plan and don't falter I will make it there.
Go Me!
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Insanity - Day 9, 10 & 11
So I messed up the whole schedule by skipping Tuesday, but as I explained I was just simply too exhausted physically and mentally to even push though a video chat, let alone a "Pure Cardio" workout. So Tuesday I took a rest day.
I resumed my program where I left off at "Pure Cardio" although I remember being extremely tired through out the workout I felt like this time I was able to push harder and take less breaks then I had the previous times. Likewise with my Thursday workout.
Thursday was my 3rd time doing "Cardio Circuit" and I kept having the oddest feelings of deja vu while doing the workout. I think this is going to get interesting seeing as the rest of the videos for the next two and a half weeks are the same ones recycled.
Also, I am heading home tomorrow! I can't wait to get back home and see my friends and family and my puppy (ok so he isn't really a puppy anymore...) and my scale. It has been pure torture these past two weeks not knowing how much I weigh, my morning weigh in usually effects my meal choices for the day and these two weeks I just had to assume the worst and make the right choices. I really really hope all my hard work paid off, I expect to see at least 5 lbs, but knowing my body maybe I only list 3, which would still be ok. I really would like to get to and even past 150, that would be a great reward.
I am all packed up and ready to get up bright and early tomorrow for a good 9 hours of aviary transport. I took a snap shot of my little mini fridge at the hotel before I left, thought you guys might like it. Just to give you guys an idea of the kind of stuff I was eating. This was mostly for lunches, dinners were normally salads, or broiled fish with extra veggies.
All of this stuff was from the Super Walmart:
Frozen Brussel Sprouts
Frozen Edamames
Cherries
Grapefruit Cups (no added sugar)
Pre Cooked Chicken Breast
Hard Boiled Eggs
Avocados
Spinach
Herb Vinaigrette Dressing
Cesar and Cobb pre-prepared salads
On various other days I also had fresh grapefruit, strawberries, mixed greens, mixed nuts and frozen broccoli. These were all easy meals that could be prepared with a microwave and plastic cutlery. Its kind of fun to see how creative you can get with limited resources.
I don't think I did all that bad when it comes to what I ate, my only fault may have been portion control. A lot of the times at restaurants I end up eating more then I would have a home simply because they prepare me more. Hopefully I worked hard enough that that isn't a problem, but if I don't lose then I am sure that is the culprit.
Can't wait to post my progress.
I resumed my program where I left off at "Pure Cardio" although I remember being extremely tired through out the workout I felt like this time I was able to push harder and take less breaks then I had the previous times. Likewise with my Thursday workout.
Thursday was my 3rd time doing "Cardio Circuit" and I kept having the oddest feelings of deja vu while doing the workout. I think this is going to get interesting seeing as the rest of the videos for the next two and a half weeks are the same ones recycled.
Also, I am heading home tomorrow! I can't wait to get back home and see my friends and family and my puppy (ok so he isn't really a puppy anymore...) and my scale. It has been pure torture these past two weeks not knowing how much I weigh, my morning weigh in usually effects my meal choices for the day and these two weeks I just had to assume the worst and make the right choices. I really really hope all my hard work paid off, I expect to see at least 5 lbs, but knowing my body maybe I only list 3, which would still be ok. I really would like to get to and even past 150, that would be a great reward.
I am all packed up and ready to get up bright and early tomorrow for a good 9 hours of aviary transport. I took a snap shot of my little mini fridge at the hotel before I left, thought you guys might like it. Just to give you guys an idea of the kind of stuff I was eating. This was mostly for lunches, dinners were normally salads, or broiled fish with extra veggies.
Frozen Brussel Sprouts
Frozen Edamames
Cherries
Grapefruit Cups (no added sugar)
Pre Cooked Chicken Breast
Hard Boiled Eggs
Avocados
Spinach
Herb Vinaigrette Dressing
Cesar and Cobb pre-prepared salads
On various other days I also had fresh grapefruit, strawberries, mixed greens, mixed nuts and frozen broccoli. These were all easy meals that could be prepared with a microwave and plastic cutlery. Its kind of fun to see how creative you can get with limited resources.
I don't think I did all that bad when it comes to what I ate, my only fault may have been portion control. A lot of the times at restaurants I end up eating more then I would have a home simply because they prepare me more. Hopefully I worked hard enough that that isn't a problem, but if I don't lose then I am sure that is the culprit.
Can't wait to post my progress.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Hard at Work
I feel awful. I wanted so badly to do my Insanity workout lastnight, but honestly after working 12 hours a day and only getting 5 or so hours of sleep for the past two weeks I feel like I hardly have anything left in the tank.
I was dozing on the way home from work, exhausted and puffy eyed through dinner, and actually fell asleep while on video chat with my boyfriend. I decided instead of doing my "Pure Cardio" last night I would just go to bed.
I really wanted to do the work out, but I remember last "Pure Cardio" I did way late at night and it made my heart feel like it was being stabbed with a knife. Maybe I am just being dramatic, but I just didn't think it would help my mental and physical health any to push through an hour of cardio when I couldn't even keep myself awake.
I will resume my "Insanity" program tonight, with "Pure Cardio", so I will offset by a day, or maybe I will just do an extra work out this week to make up for it. I don't want to get into a habit of skipping workouts, but this week is an extenuating circumstance and I don't think I will let it happen too often once I get home.
In the meantime time I am focusing on eating healthy so when I get home ( SO SOON NOW) I will be happy with my weigh-in. I worked really hard these past two weeks, so I expect to see at least 5lbs loss. We will see how that turns out.
I was dozing on the way home from work, exhausted and puffy eyed through dinner, and actually fell asleep while on video chat with my boyfriend. I decided instead of doing my "Pure Cardio" last night I would just go to bed.
I really wanted to do the work out, but I remember last "Pure Cardio" I did way late at night and it made my heart feel like it was being stabbed with a knife. Maybe I am just being dramatic, but I just didn't think it would help my mental and physical health any to push through an hour of cardio when I couldn't even keep myself awake.
I will resume my "Insanity" program tonight, with "Pure Cardio", so I will offset by a day, or maybe I will just do an extra work out this week to make up for it. I don't want to get into a habit of skipping workouts, but this week is an extenuating circumstance and I don't think I will let it happen too often once I get home.
In the meantime time I am focusing on eating healthy so when I get home ( SO SOON NOW) I will be happy with my weigh-in. I worked really hard these past two weeks, so I expect to see at least 5lbs loss. We will see how that turns out.
Monday, June 13, 2011
Insanity - Day 8
Cardio & Power Resistance day. I think that this is my favorite workout so far (maybe aside from Recovery). I think I like it best because its split up into a lot of small water breaks and I always feel like I have the energy left to push through.
The jumps are pretty fun for me, however exhausting. I did notice that I was doing a lot better with the push ups section this time too.
I have been working the crazyist hours during this work trip and have not gotten much sleep, and despite bringing my lunch and choosing only salads or diet healthy foods I really think the food is getting to me. I feel really sapped for energy, it took me a lot to get through the workout. (Not as much as on Friday though, Friday was just brutal. I guess it helps that I had a "Rest Day" yesterday so I didn't have to push so hard.
I want to say sorry to all my friends who I follow for not commenting much this past week or so, but between 12 hour work days, 2 hour commute, 1 hr dinner in a restaurant and my 45 min workout I hardly have any free time to catch up with the goings ons in other people's lives. I hope to remedy that in the next few days because I get to go home on Friday!
Can't wait! Tomorrow is "Pure Cardio" that one sucked. Not looking forward to it - also I really have to stop eating so late (its hard with these stupid hours) but doing these workouts on a full stomach is like a recipe for disaster. I always feel like utter doo afterwards.
Bed for me! I took some measurements this morning, not sure if I should post them or not since I had like a 5 hour hike yesterday that could have dehydrated me. I just want to be sure that any loss wasn't just water weight. I would feel soo much more comfortable if I just had my scale with me.
The jumps are pretty fun for me, however exhausting. I did notice that I was doing a lot better with the push ups section this time too.
I have been working the crazyist hours during this work trip and have not gotten much sleep, and despite bringing my lunch and choosing only salads or diet healthy foods I really think the food is getting to me. I feel really sapped for energy, it took me a lot to get through the workout. (Not as much as on Friday though, Friday was just brutal. I guess it helps that I had a "Rest Day" yesterday so I didn't have to push so hard.
I want to say sorry to all my friends who I follow for not commenting much this past week or so, but between 12 hour work days, 2 hour commute, 1 hr dinner in a restaurant and my 45 min workout I hardly have any free time to catch up with the goings ons in other people's lives. I hope to remedy that in the next few days because I get to go home on Friday!
Can't wait! Tomorrow is "Pure Cardio" that one sucked. Not looking forward to it - also I really have to stop eating so late (its hard with these stupid hours) but doing these workouts on a full stomach is like a recipe for disaster. I always feel like utter doo afterwards.
Bed for me! I took some measurements this morning, not sure if I should post them or not since I had like a 5 hour hike yesterday that could have dehydrated me. I just want to be sure that any loss wasn't just water weight. I would feel soo much more comfortable if I just had my scale with me.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Insanity - Day 6 & 7
Day 6 was my second day of "Plyometrics Cardio Curcuit." I actually think it was harder the second time around. Now it probably doesn't help that I had just put in a 13 hour day at work and it was 12:00am when I started the workout but I really, really struggled to get through it. I had to keep pausing and taking a break because I was feeling dizzy and felt my heart racing. I think I maybe pushed a bit too hard on my exhausted body, but I am really determined to get through this program. And I just don't want to skip a day if I don't have to.
After my workout I kicked my shoes off and fell straight to bed.
Day 7 is my "Rest Day" there is no video for today. You are supposed to use this day to allow your body and muscles time to recover for the next week. I was toying with the idea of doing "Cardio Recovery" today just to get some stretches in since they feel amazing, but I also went for a 8mile hike through a canyon today and I think that just may suffice in the way of exercise.
But I could use the stretches, maybe I will give it a shot before bed (earlier then 12 this time). Tomorrow I start again with "Power Resistance" that one was hard, but remember it being pretty fun.
After my workout I kicked my shoes off and fell straight to bed.
Day 7 is my "Rest Day" there is no video for today. You are supposed to use this day to allow your body and muscles time to recover for the next week. I was toying with the idea of doing "Cardio Recovery" today just to get some stretches in since they feel amazing, but I also went for a 8mile hike through a canyon today and I think that just may suffice in the way of exercise.
But I could use the stretches, maybe I will give it a shot before bed (earlier then 12 this time). Tomorrow I start again with "Power Resistance" that one was hard, but remember it being pretty fun.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Insanity - Day 5
"Pure Cardio" more like "Pure Insanity."
This workout was by and far the most difficult. Much like "Plyometrics" and "Cardio Circuit" its a 40 minute workout with a 10 minute warmup. However for some reason this warmup was more of a wear down, and really set the mood for the rest of the workout. I was tired and winded within the first 6 minutes. After the warmup was a much needed stretch, and then a water break. Then straight into intense cardio moves like football sprints, suicides, and some various jump squats. Unlike "Plyometrics" and "Cardio Circuit" the exercises are not split up by intermediate breaks. It ends up being about 25 minutes straight of cardio sprints, jumps, pushups and boxing jabs. Then a final stretch at the end.
I honestly feel like I spent more time trying to catch my breath or encourage my body to keep going then I actually spent working out. I was sweating and know my heart rate was elevated, but I'm worried I didn't work hard enough - yet again. And yes my sore muscles from the first 4 days probably didn't help the situation, but honestly I felt my heartbeat getting way to high and think if I was wearing a heartbeat monitor it would have told me to stop too. Perhaps I should get one, so that I can make sure that I am not working too hard and keeping my heart rate in the right zone.
I thought this workout was odd because you watch the videos and you are struggling to keep up, and these extremely fit people working out all around him have to keep taking breaks to drink or rest because they are worn out. I also spoke to a few of my soccer teammates who have done the workouts and they have all admitted that they gave the program up after the first couple of weeks or the first month because it was too intense and they simply could not continue. It makes me feel a bit better about my own performance through out these videos, even though I am no where near as fit as them, but it also makes me really determined to finish it.
Today is "Plyometrics" again. We will see if it is any easier the second time around.
This workout was by and far the most difficult. Much like "Plyometrics" and "Cardio Circuit" its a 40 minute workout with a 10 minute warmup. However for some reason this warmup was more of a wear down, and really set the mood for the rest of the workout. I was tired and winded within the first 6 minutes. After the warmup was a much needed stretch, and then a water break. Then straight into intense cardio moves like football sprints, suicides, and some various jump squats. Unlike "Plyometrics" and "Cardio Circuit" the exercises are not split up by intermediate breaks. It ends up being about 25 minutes straight of cardio sprints, jumps, pushups and boxing jabs. Then a final stretch at the end.
I honestly feel like I spent more time trying to catch my breath or encourage my body to keep going then I actually spent working out. I was sweating and know my heart rate was elevated, but I'm worried I didn't work hard enough - yet again. And yes my sore muscles from the first 4 days probably didn't help the situation, but honestly I felt my heartbeat getting way to high and think if I was wearing a heartbeat monitor it would have told me to stop too. Perhaps I should get one, so that I can make sure that I am not working too hard and keeping my heart rate in the right zone.
I thought this workout was odd because you watch the videos and you are struggling to keep up, and these extremely fit people working out all around him have to keep taking breaks to drink or rest because they are worn out. I also spoke to a few of my soccer teammates who have done the workouts and they have all admitted that they gave the program up after the first couple of weeks or the first month because it was too intense and they simply could not continue. It makes me feel a bit better about my own performance through out these videos, even though I am no where near as fit as them, but it also makes me really determined to finish it.
Today is "Plyometrics" again. We will see if it is any easier the second time around.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Insanity - Day 4
So Day 4 is "Cardio Recovery". Although the name sounded like a nice relaxing workout I was skeptical that the same workout that brought me Day 2 and Day 3 could possibly understand what a recovery workout was like.
I was however wrong. After 3 days of jumping right into Insanity I was quite sore in many muscles, most notably my calves, shoulders and a bit in my hamstrings. This workout was about 33 minutes of breathing exercises, stretches, core resistance holds and other types of muscle holds. The workout was a rather slow and controlled pace, and a lot of the stretches break up the exercises so you don't feel exhausted or even need a break for water. After the workout I felt refreshed, and loose and ready to take on my "Pure Cardio" workout tomorrow. So I guess "Cardio Recovery" is an appropriate name for this workout, I will see if I still feel loose and rearing to go tomorrow.
Despite my euphoric feeling afterwards, during the routine I found myself struggling to follow along with a lot of the workout. At a point Shaun (the instructor) has you hold lunges and squats for minutes at a time. My muscles just couldn't hold me, they began to quiver and I had to stand up for a short moment to rest them before going back into the hold. Another place where I struggled were the balance exercises. I guess I just don't have very good body equilibrium because I could barely even hold myself steady with one knee up in the air. I expect that my balance should improve as my core muscles get stronger.
One issue I have with most of these workouts so far is Shaun will switch up into moves without really explaining how to do them. At these points I find it useful to watch one round, then rewind and then do the round with him. I guess I understand since you end up watching the same videos and doing the same workouts multiple times so eventually you will catch on, and not even need the reference. But for now I'm new and find it difficult to just jump into some of the moves he is expecting.
Lets see how this "Pure Cardio" goes.
P.S. I hope you all aren't getting bored with these posts but hopefully anyone wanting to do these workouts can be more prepared and encouraged by my experience. There is only one extra workout after "Pure Cardio" before the routines begin to repeat so I will probably post about it less frequently so I don't sound like a broken record.
I was however wrong. After 3 days of jumping right into Insanity I was quite sore in many muscles, most notably my calves, shoulders and a bit in my hamstrings. This workout was about 33 minutes of breathing exercises, stretches, core resistance holds and other types of muscle holds. The workout was a rather slow and controlled pace, and a lot of the stretches break up the exercises so you don't feel exhausted or even need a break for water. After the workout I felt refreshed, and loose and ready to take on my "Pure Cardio" workout tomorrow. So I guess "Cardio Recovery" is an appropriate name for this workout, I will see if I still feel loose and rearing to go tomorrow.
Despite my euphoric feeling afterwards, during the routine I found myself struggling to follow along with a lot of the workout. At a point Shaun (the instructor) has you hold lunges and squats for minutes at a time. My muscles just couldn't hold me, they began to quiver and I had to stand up for a short moment to rest them before going back into the hold. Another place where I struggled were the balance exercises. I guess I just don't have very good body equilibrium because I could barely even hold myself steady with one knee up in the air. I expect that my balance should improve as my core muscles get stronger.
One issue I have with most of these workouts so far is Shaun will switch up into moves without really explaining how to do them. At these points I find it useful to watch one round, then rewind and then do the round with him. I guess I understand since you end up watching the same videos and doing the same workouts multiple times so eventually you will catch on, and not even need the reference. But for now I'm new and find it difficult to just jump into some of the moves he is expecting.
Lets see how this "Pure Cardio" goes.
P.S. I hope you all aren't getting bored with these posts but hopefully anyone wanting to do these workouts can be more prepared and encouraged by my experience. There is only one extra workout after "Pure Cardio" before the routines begin to repeat so I will probably post about it less frequently so I don't sound like a broken record.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Insanity - Day 3
Day 3 workout is called "Cardio & Power Resistance".
Much like the format of the first workout it was a 40 minute workout that started with a quick 8 or so min cardio workout and warmup, then a nice 5 minute stretch and then about 20 or so minutes of all sorts of jumps, squats and push ups and then a 4 minute cool down.
All the kinesthetics in this workout make the "Power Resistance" an appropriate name for this workout. However, after doing it I am more convinced the "Power Resistance" comes from your brain.... "I know how much you would like to do that push up Ellie, but I simply won't let you do it." I think it would really help me to have a partner next to me, or someone (like a personal trainer) there to push me to keep going when my brain/body wants to stop. I feel like I have a skinny Ellie on one shoulder urging "Keep going, you can do it, you must push through" and a overweight unhealthy Ellie on the other shoulder saying "You did enough, that will do, you can stop now." I want to push that unhealthy Ellie off my shoulder and out of my head, that is one of my goals in doing these workouts.
During this workout I once again failed to keep up with the video once they started doing arm exercises, like push ups, and running push ups, and triceps dips. I can really see where my body needs improvement. I suppose this is to be expected, I mean I use my legs every day to walk, climb stairs, play soccer and carry my own body weight, but my arms are swiftly typing on a computer or grasped firmly on the wheel of my car... I think it would be nice to get some muscle to my arms, I keep noticing in my progress pics that they haven't really been going anywhere.
Like yesterday I was dripping sweat after my workout, I wasn't nearly as out of breath, but there was also less cardio this workout. I was a bit stiff going into the workout, but after a warm up and a stretch I hardly noticed. After the workout I was a bit shaky and weak feeling, but recovered quickly. Also, I really regretted working out so soon after dinner, my stomach was very unsettled and I felt I was going to yak at any moment while jumping and bouncing around.
Today is "Cardio Recovery" day. I'd like to think that sounds like a nice relaxing workout, but given the first two workouts I am not going to get my hopes up at all. I will let you know how my recovery goes.
Much like the format of the first workout it was a 40 minute workout that started with a quick 8 or so min cardio workout and warmup, then a nice 5 minute stretch and then about 20 or so minutes of all sorts of jumps, squats and push ups and then a 4 minute cool down.
All the kinesthetics in this workout make the "Power Resistance" an appropriate name for this workout. However, after doing it I am more convinced the "Power Resistance" comes from your brain.... "I know how much you would like to do that push up Ellie, but I simply won't let you do it." I think it would really help me to have a partner next to me, or someone (like a personal trainer) there to push me to keep going when my brain/body wants to stop. I feel like I have a skinny Ellie on one shoulder urging "Keep going, you can do it, you must push through" and a overweight unhealthy Ellie on the other shoulder saying "You did enough, that will do, you can stop now." I want to push that unhealthy Ellie off my shoulder and out of my head, that is one of my goals in doing these workouts.
During this workout I once again failed to keep up with the video once they started doing arm exercises, like push ups, and running push ups, and triceps dips. I can really see where my body needs improvement. I suppose this is to be expected, I mean I use my legs every day to walk, climb stairs, play soccer and carry my own body weight, but my arms are swiftly typing on a computer or grasped firmly on the wheel of my car... I think it would be nice to get some muscle to my arms, I keep noticing in my progress pics that they haven't really been going anywhere.
Like yesterday I was dripping sweat after my workout, I wasn't nearly as out of breath, but there was also less cardio this workout. I was a bit stiff going into the workout, but after a warm up and a stretch I hardly noticed. After the workout I was a bit shaky and weak feeling, but recovered quickly. Also, I really regretted working out so soon after dinner, my stomach was very unsettled and I felt I was going to yak at any moment while jumping and bouncing around.
Today is "Cardio Recovery" day. I'd like to think that sounds like a nice relaxing workout, but given the first two workouts I am not going to get my hopes up at all. I will let you know how my recovery goes.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Insanity - Day 2
Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow....... wow.
First of all let me say I take back what I was saying yesterday about being sore. After sitting at my desk working for 10 hours, my muscles were getting fairly stiff, nothing debilitating, but something closer to the burn I was expecting.
I finished my first *real* insanity work out yesterday and all I can say is wow. You know that burn I was complaining about not having? Well I feel it now, and am 100% sure I will be super sore come work out time today.
This workout was called "Plyometric Cardio Circuit." The workout was 42 minutes, it started with a nice 5 minute warm-up which quickly turned into a 10 minute cardio routine, then a short break followed by a refreshing 7 minute stretch. After the stretch we jumped right into the actual cardio circuit with 9 minutes of intense squats, jumps, mountain climbers, with short breaks in between sets. Then what was quite possibly the worst 9 minutes of my life (well not really but boy was it tough) which consisted of push ups, and jumps and planks, with breaks between sets.
I was literally crying during those 9 minutes. My body was super drained and as much as I wanted to push and make myself do the moves I just couldn't do it. I even ended up scraping my knee on the carpet and re-injuring a hurt toe trying to do this part of the workout. I was disappointed in myself because I really, really, REALLY wanted to do the exercises. I guess it gives me room to grow, but I can't help but feel bad about my performance during this part of the circuit. It took all I had to just keep moving, I just simply couldn't do the moves they wanted.
The workout wrapped up with a quick 2 minutes of boxing style jabs and uppercuts and then a final 3 minutes of cool-down stretching (which felt AMAZING).
I was dripping sweat after this workout, and so was my more-fit boyfriend. He also struggled on the last part so it makes me feel a bit better. I now understand why everyone says Insanity is so difficult, but I have nothing better to do while I am stranded in the hotel, and honestly I'm up for the challenge. I want to complete this just to say that I have, and to prove to myself that I can.
Today is "Cardio and Power Resistance" I will see how this workout compares to yesterday.
First of all let me say I take back what I was saying yesterday about being sore. After sitting at my desk working for 10 hours, my muscles were getting fairly stiff, nothing debilitating, but something closer to the burn I was expecting.
I finished my first *real* insanity work out yesterday and all I can say is wow. You know that burn I was complaining about not having? Well I feel it now, and am 100% sure I will be super sore come work out time today.
This workout was called "Plyometric Cardio Circuit." The workout was 42 minutes, it started with a nice 5 minute warm-up which quickly turned into a 10 minute cardio routine, then a short break followed by a refreshing 7 minute stretch. After the stretch we jumped right into the actual cardio circuit with 9 minutes of intense squats, jumps, mountain climbers, with short breaks in between sets. Then what was quite possibly the worst 9 minutes of my life (well not really but boy was it tough) which consisted of push ups, and jumps and planks, with breaks between sets.
I was literally crying during those 9 minutes. My body was super drained and as much as I wanted to push and make myself do the moves I just couldn't do it. I even ended up scraping my knee on the carpet and re-injuring a hurt toe trying to do this part of the workout. I was disappointed in myself because I really, really, REALLY wanted to do the exercises. I guess it gives me room to grow, but I can't help but feel bad about my performance during this part of the circuit. It took all I had to just keep moving, I just simply couldn't do the moves they wanted.
The workout wrapped up with a quick 2 minutes of boxing style jabs and uppercuts and then a final 3 minutes of cool-down stretching (which felt AMAZING).
I was dripping sweat after this workout, and so was my more-fit boyfriend. He also struggled on the last part so it makes me feel a bit better. I now understand why everyone says Insanity is so difficult, but I have nothing better to do while I am stranded in the hotel, and honestly I'm up for the challenge. I want to complete this just to say that I have, and to prove to myself that I can.
Today is "Cardio and Power Resistance" I will see how this workout compares to yesterday.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Insanity - Day 1
Yesterday was my Day 1 of the Insanity workouts.
I have been very interested in trying some of the "Beachbody" workouts. I normally fall asleep on the couch watching Mythbusters or some episode of Diners, Drive Ins and Dives and always wake up to the promises of wash board abs and a tight tone tummy and firm muscular arms. Who wouldn't be interested in that??? Even more convincing - I have a handful of friends who advertise the workouts and products on their facebooks and in person. It starts to get really difficult to dismiss the workouts and informercials as simply an advertisement when you see the results first hand.
So I decided I wanted to give it a shot. I mean, I have nothing to lose (except maybe the $$$ spent on the dvds), and even if the work outs don't work they way they say and are only a part of a great ad campagin - at least I motivated myself to try something new.
So I decided I would give it a shot. As an *early* 20lb loss gift my boyfriend purchased the "Insanity" system for me. It comes with a nutrition guide, 14 workouts, and a workout sheet. It also has a welcome package and a motivational video which I thought were nice, but the real meat are the workout and nutrition guide.
I love how simple they make it. "Eat the food in the guide, do the workouts in this order on these days." The nutrition guide is laid out really simply too, it gives you a list of 5 or 6 meals to choose for each of 5 meals a day. Despite how simply laid out the nutrition guide is, I won't be working the nutrition guide into this cycle of Insanity. The first reason is because the nutrition guide emphasizes 5 meals a day, and I am already having trouble while on site and away from home doing 3 healthy meals. Also, and more importantly I have been sticking to a "slow-carb" diet for the past 5 months and have been pleased with the results and more importantly have been able to sustain the diet for 5 months (I can't see my self sustaining 5 meals a day for the rest of my life). So as long as I continue to have the energy to do the work outs I think I will continue to use my own diet.
Now for the workout. The first day is a fit test, the schedule has you repeat this fit test every 2 weeks (for a total of 4 times) to track your progress throughout the system. The fit test is a 25 min workout with a 5 minute warm-up/stretch and then a power packed 15 min of jumps, squats and core exercises with breaks between and then finishes with a 5 minute cooldown stretch.
My results of the fit test were:
Switch Kicks : 59
Power Jacks : 44
Power Knees : 55
Power Jumps : 33
Globe Jumps : 9
Suicide Jumps : 12
Push Up Jacks : 11
Low Plank Obliques : 44
The workout wasn't easy, but I don't think it was impossible either. I felt disappointed with my results and think I can push myself a lot harder next time. A lot of my issue came from my lack of coordination, I was so focused on form and making my body move the way it was supposed to (it is highly important to focus on form for these workouts) that I forgot to count, or would mess up and not count the rep due to improper form.
Hopefully my coordination will improve along with my results. The push-up jacks were the hardest for me to do because my arms are very weak, and towards the end, even with breaks I was unable to push my body back up to starting position to complete a rep. During the entire routine I felt burns in my core and hamstrings, so I hope some of the other workouts spread the burn around, but I might not hate having 6-pack abs and thunder thighs.
I am not feeling sore at all, I feel a bit of tightness in my abs but I really didn't get the soreness that I expected, and HOPED to have. Sometimes I love that achy feeling since it reminds me how hard I worked. To be honest I am more sore in my shoulders from lugging my bags around the airport last Sunday then I am from the workout. Maybe that is a sign that I haven't worked hard enough? I will just have to be extra sure to push extra hard for the rest of the week. Maybe it will be a building soreness.
Onward to more workouts!!!
I have been very interested in trying some of the "Beachbody" workouts. I normally fall asleep on the couch watching Mythbusters or some episode of Diners, Drive Ins and Dives and always wake up to the promises of wash board abs and a tight tone tummy and firm muscular arms. Who wouldn't be interested in that??? Even more convincing - I have a handful of friends who advertise the workouts and products on their facebooks and in person. It starts to get really difficult to dismiss the workouts and informercials as simply an advertisement when you see the results first hand.
So I decided I wanted to give it a shot. I mean, I have nothing to lose (except maybe the $$$ spent on the dvds), and even if the work outs don't work they way they say and are only a part of a great ad campagin - at least I motivated myself to try something new.
So I decided I would give it a shot. As an *early* 20lb loss gift my boyfriend purchased the "Insanity" system for me. It comes with a nutrition guide, 14 workouts, and a workout sheet. It also has a welcome package and a motivational video which I thought were nice, but the real meat are the workout and nutrition guide.
I love how simple they make it. "Eat the food in the guide, do the workouts in this order on these days." The nutrition guide is laid out really simply too, it gives you a list of 5 or 6 meals to choose for each of 5 meals a day. Despite how simply laid out the nutrition guide is, I won't be working the nutrition guide into this cycle of Insanity. The first reason is because the nutrition guide emphasizes 5 meals a day, and I am already having trouble while on site and away from home doing 3 healthy meals. Also, and more importantly I have been sticking to a "slow-carb" diet for the past 5 months and have been pleased with the results and more importantly have been able to sustain the diet for 5 months (I can't see my self sustaining 5 meals a day for the rest of my life). So as long as I continue to have the energy to do the work outs I think I will continue to use my own diet.
Now for the workout. The first day is a fit test, the schedule has you repeat this fit test every 2 weeks (for a total of 4 times) to track your progress throughout the system. The fit test is a 25 min workout with a 5 minute warm-up/stretch and then a power packed 15 min of jumps, squats and core exercises with breaks between and then finishes with a 5 minute cooldown stretch.
My results of the fit test were:
Switch Kicks : 59
Power Jacks : 44
Power Knees : 55
Power Jumps : 33
Globe Jumps : 9
Suicide Jumps : 12
Push Up Jacks : 11
Low Plank Obliques : 44
The workout wasn't easy, but I don't think it was impossible either. I felt disappointed with my results and think I can push myself a lot harder next time. A lot of my issue came from my lack of coordination, I was so focused on form and making my body move the way it was supposed to (it is highly important to focus on form for these workouts) that I forgot to count, or would mess up and not count the rep due to improper form.
Hopefully my coordination will improve along with my results. The push-up jacks were the hardest for me to do because my arms are very weak, and towards the end, even with breaks I was unable to push my body back up to starting position to complete a rep. During the entire routine I felt burns in my core and hamstrings, so I hope some of the other workouts spread the burn around, but I might not hate having 6-pack abs and thunder thighs.
I am not feeling sore at all, I feel a bit of tightness in my abs but I really didn't get the soreness that I expected, and HOPED to have. Sometimes I love that achy feeling since it reminds me how hard I worked. To be honest I am more sore in my shoulders from lugging my bags around the airport last Sunday then I am from the workout. Maybe that is a sign that I haven't worked hard enough? I will just have to be extra sure to push extra hard for the rest of the week. Maybe it will be a building soreness.
Onward to more workouts!!!
Monday, June 6, 2011
Weigh In 6/6/11
I will not be weighing in today... because my scale and my wall, and my bikini are
2100 miles away!
2100 miles away!
So this probably isn't the sort of "Weigh In" post that you expect from me but sometimes life gets in the way of our hopes and dreams and goals and this is no exception. I sort of alluded to this week in my last "Weigh In" post when I mentioned some obstacles I would have to face this month.
Sometimes my job requires me to do "on site" work, which normally means about a week away from home in a hotel room eating out for breakfast, lunch, and dinner and having no soccer or time for the gym. In the past I have gone on these one week site visits and come home 5 or 10 lbs heavier. 7 days of fast food and eating out *usually on the company* will do that - take my word for it. And this month, I am scheduled for an unusual 2 (or maybe even 3 depending on how things go) weeks on site clear across the country from home. How will I ever maintain, let alone lose weight while I am away from my routine, healthy meals, and exercise plans?
Over the past 5 months I have been doing so great, I have been teetering on the cusp of breaking my 20lb weight loss benchmark and blowing past my 150s and into the 140s (a place I probably haven't been since middle school). I really want to get there, and I have been so worried these past couple of weeks leading up to this trip I started to stress eat... a horrible lapse in judgment that I haven't given into in 5 months.
But here I am 2100 miles away from home hoping, trying and praying that I can make weightloss work, even if I am out of my element. I have already made some changes to the usual routine including requesting a fridge in my hotel room, and I went to the grocery store to get food stuffs for lunches, snacks, breakfasts and dinner. Sure it isn't as ritzy as writing off a crabcake dinner with a cocktail on the side and a slice of cheesecake to work, but when it comes down to it I would rather reach my goals that I have been working so hard towards then get a free meal any day.
And as a *early* 20lb weight loss gift my my boyfriend got me the "Insanity" workouts to do while I am away on travel. I have been seeing infomercials all over the TV and ads on websites and facebook and was really interested in trying it. He is even doing the work outs with me from home, so when I get back we can compare results and do them together.
I did my first workout tonight (a fit test). I will post the results in a different post since this one is getting super long. If you are interested in trying the workouts keep in touch, because I intend to leave updates on my progress along the way.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Memorial Day = Bikini Season?
So memorial day marks the unofficial beginning of summer. Covers come off of grills (yummy!), covers come off of pools, and cover-ups come off of millions of bikini-clad ladies world wide.
Will I be joining this endless barrage of women choosing to bear all (well most) for the public this summer?
Short answer: No.
At least not yet. While I, and I am sure many of you have all seen people frolicking on the beach or in the pool in a suit clearly too small for them, I refuse to be that person. I probably have nothing to worry about, but I am just not comfortable with the way I look in a bikini to choose to wear that out in public.
That's not to say that I will not be wearing a suit at all. Last year I didn't, I was so embarrassed I basically avoided any situation that would require me to wear a suit... This year I will stick to my trusty tankini, at least for now. As a confidence boosting exercise.
I am already leaps and bounds more confident about my body and the way I look, but there is nothing like feeling naked (unzipped) in front of strangers to make you want to shape up. Maybe I messed up last week, maybe I didn't (The scale read 151 this morning, which is technically the last day of the month, so maybe I did get an entire month with no gain, also 151 marks 20lbs down since January, but I'll wait until an official weigh-in to report all that) but I'm ready to kick this into high gear.
Maybe I will dawn my bikini in public this year after all.
P.S. I just wanted to thank Trisha for awarding the "Adorable Blogger Award" and Headspace for the "Stylish Blogger Award". I will have to make a post about them later!
Will I be joining this endless barrage of women choosing to bear all (well most) for the public this summer?
Short answer: No.
At least not yet. While I, and I am sure many of you have all seen people frolicking on the beach or in the pool in a suit clearly too small for them, I refuse to be that person. I probably have nothing to worry about, but I am just not comfortable with the way I look in a bikini to choose to wear that out in public.
That's not to say that I will not be wearing a suit at all. Last year I didn't, I was so embarrassed I basically avoided any situation that would require me to wear a suit... This year I will stick to my trusty tankini, at least for now. As a confidence boosting exercise.
I am already leaps and bounds more confident about my body and the way I look, but there is nothing like feeling naked (unzipped) in front of strangers to make you want to shape up. Maybe I messed up last week, maybe I didn't (The scale read 151 this morning, which is technically the last day of the month, so maybe I did get an entire month with no gain, also 151 marks 20lbs down since January, but I'll wait until an official weigh-in to report all that) but I'm ready to kick this into high gear.
Maybe I will dawn my bikini in public this year after all.
P.S. I just wanted to thank Trisha for awarding the "Adorable Blogger Award" and Headspace for the "Stylish Blogger Award". I will have to make a post about them later!
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
New 5/30/11
So my month without a gain: failure... by .2 lbs. DOH!
I can't be too angry, I have to admit I "enjoyed" my holiday weekend. I had a few extra "snacks" that I should have laid off of, and I didn't do any exercise (my norm of an hour of soccer on Sunday was cancelled) and all I can say is I'm glad I didn't undo all of my hard work, even though it feels that way.
Ugh, seeing the numbers laid out like that really makes me regret my decisions. I was doing so well, and was watching the scale bob around 150 all week until I let loose on Friday. I guess it's just really proof that I need to be ever concious of my decisions and I just can't eat like a "normal" person, or I will see it on my hips... literally.
Seeing as I see a decrease in my body fat and increases everywhere else maybe I can cross my fingers and home that its that time of the month and I am just overall bloated, because .2 lb gain wouldn't explain all of those inches. We will just have to see how next week turns out.
Here is my month in review, it was going pretty darn well until today (well yesterday).
Although I couldn't sustain a month without a gain, I was able to lose more then 5 lbs this month, so that puts me back on track, and blows last April (gain of .8 lbs) out of the water. Can't really explain the gains in hips and calf, but again hoping that is is just TOM catching up to me, although I have never really seen it before. But I don't want to make any excuses, I just need to keep looking forward and trying new things to melt the fat away.
Check out my overall journey from the beginning of this blog:
Unhappy to have to change some of those losses to smaller numbers, seems that I may have gained in the calf and hips, perhaps muscle, perhaps bloat. I can't tell yet, but what I can tell is -19 lbs is pretty spectacular. I am pretty sure that I can look forward to hitting my -20 lbs benchmark this week and I will be super excited for that. I thought I would go ahead and get my hair cut, but I'm sorta thinking I like it longer, so maybe I will just get it colored or styled, or maybe a new outfit.
I will have to decide when I get there.
I have a few big obstacles coming up this month I need to fight with, and I have a few aces in my pocket I want to try and use to keep the numbers moving in the right direction. I will have to explain better in another post but formalities for now.
I can't be too angry, I have to admit I "enjoyed" my holiday weekend. I had a few extra "snacks" that I should have laid off of, and I didn't do any exercise (my norm of an hour of soccer on Sunday was cancelled) and all I can say is I'm glad I didn't undo all of my hard work, even though it feels that way.
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Seeing as I see a decrease in my body fat and increases everywhere else maybe I can cross my fingers and home that its that time of the month and I am just overall bloated, because .2 lb gain wouldn't explain all of those inches. We will just have to see how next week turns out.
Here is my month in review, it was going pretty darn well until today (well yesterday).
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May 2 2011 | May 30 2011 | ||
| Weight: | 157.8 lbs | 152.6 lbs | (-5.2) |
| Body Fat: | 31 % | 29% | (-2) |
| Bust: | 37" | 36" | (-1) |
| Waist: | 29.5" | 29" | (-.5) |
| Hips: | 39" | 39.5" | (+.5) |
| Bicep: | 11.5" | 11.25" | (-.25) |
| Thigh: | 22.75" | 22.5" | (-.25) |
| Calf: | 14.75" | 15" | (+.25) |
Although I couldn't sustain a month without a gain, I was able to lose more then 5 lbs this month, so that puts me back on track, and blows last April (gain of .8 lbs) out of the water. Can't really explain the gains in hips and calf, but again hoping that is is just TOM catching up to me, although I have never really seen it before. But I don't want to make any excuses, I just need to keep looking forward and trying new things to melt the fat away.
Check out my overall journey from the beginning of this blog:
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January 1 2011 | May 30 2011 | ||
| Weight: | 171.6 lbs | 152.6 lbs | (-19) |
| Body Fat: | 36 % | 29% | (-7) |
| Bust: | 38.5" | 36" | (-2.5) |
| Waist: | 32" | 29" | (-3) |
| Hips: | 43" | 39.5" | (-3.5) |
| Bicep: | 12.75" | 11.25" | (-1.5) |
| Thigh: | 24" | 22.5" | (-1.5) |
| Calf: | 15.5" | 15" | (-.5) |
Unhappy to have to change some of those losses to smaller numbers, seems that I may have gained in the calf and hips, perhaps muscle, perhaps bloat. I can't tell yet, but what I can tell is -19 lbs is pretty spectacular. I am pretty sure that I can look forward to hitting my -20 lbs benchmark this week and I will be super excited for that. I thought I would go ahead and get my hair cut, but I'm sorta thinking I like it longer, so maybe I will just get it colored or styled, or maybe a new outfit.
I will have to decide when I get there.
I have a few big obstacles coming up this month I need to fight with, and I have a few aces in my pocket I want to try and use to keep the numbers moving in the right direction. I will have to explain better in another post but formalities for now.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Weigh In 5/23/2011
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Well my goal of one month with no gain is going well this month. I only have one week left to not gain any weight and I am in the clear! 1.8lbs is a great loss, surely it makes up for last week, and with 5+ lbs lost this month already I feel good that I am back on track with my weight loss goals (despite April's plans to foil me).
150 is getting so close I can taste it - High school skinny! I'm noticing my pants, and shirts from last year are a bit lose and I'd like to celebrate by going shopping, but I don't want to go crazy because hopefully in another month or two my new clothes will be getting lose too.
Plus I had a great NSV the other week. Let me give you some background first - my bf is a very slender guy. He has always been tiny, and eats some of the most unhealthy stuff on earth. I wouldn't even dream of eating some of the things he prepares. But anyways, I have alway had a twinge of self consciousness when I am out in public with him because I assume everyone is looking at me thinking "what is that guy doing with that whale." However the other day, out of curiosity I measured his waist and it was 31 inches, mine is 28.75!!! Now he still weighs at least 17 lbs less then me, but I feel like maybe I can finally lay those negative thoughts to rest. And that is truly something to celebrate.
Lets finish this out strong!
Monday, May 16, 2011
Weigh In 5/16/11
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Well, not the best week by any means, but I lost 3.4 lbs last week and can understand only a small loss this week. But more importantly it is not a gain, so I am doing good on my goal to have a month without a gain.
I have been weighing in daily, and sometimes multiple times a day. I wanted to get a handle on what the heck my body is doing, and why I am seeing the numbers I am seeing. For instance Friday morning I weighed in at 152.6 which is amazing, but that must have been a downswing because Saturday morning I was back up to 153.6 and Sunday to 155!!! and back to normal on Monday at 154. I really wish I could get a handle on the waves and level them out to only swing a pound or two because these 4 lb swings are really frustrating.
Thanks to everyone for their support on my last post. I just want to be clear that I did not post the picture to brag but only to show how things we thought are impossible are possible with some hard work. To all my friends and readers who covet my "meaty thighs" just remember that I only started my journey at 170lbs, if you keep doing what you are doing you will get to where you want to be before you know it. It has taken me 5 months to lose 15 lbs, slow but steady.
When I first started my journey I had grand plans of losing 20 lbs in one month, but I am slowly learning there is no quick fix to this, and weight loss is an endurance game. Just don't ever give up the race!
Thursday, May 12, 2011
NSV
It seems like it has been forever since I made a non-weigh in post. I feel fairly guilty for that, because I don't want to send the message that my journey is all about results. It isn't. To me it is about challenging myself to be a better me. About accepting, and loving the person I am and improving my health, attitude, and general outlook on life.
For the past few weeks I had been struggling with that aspect of my journey. Since I wasn't seeing results on the scale I was convinced I had no results period, and that simply wasn't true. I mean just look at this picture I took a couple of weeks ago.
Yup! Those are my meaty thighs and muscular calfs wearing tights and boots.
I mean if you have ever tried to put on tights and wear them comfortably as an overweight or obese lady you know why they haven't been a part of my wardrobe for the past 6 years. And don't even get me started on the woes of boot shopping with large calfs. I mean started and named my blog after an embarrassing boot shopping experience.
Who would have known, two things that 5 months ago I was almost positive I could never wear - I'm wearing!
Everyday I am gaining confidence in myself and the things I can do. I look in the mirror and smile, I decide to try on clothes even if they might not fit. I feel happier and it gives me great hope for the future and what it will bring. This journey is about so much more then results.
For the past few weeks I had been struggling with that aspect of my journey. Since I wasn't seeing results on the scale I was convinced I had no results period, and that simply wasn't true. I mean just look at this picture I took a couple of weeks ago.
Yup! Those are my meaty thighs and muscular calfs wearing tights and boots.
I mean if you have ever tried to put on tights and wear them comfortably as an overweight or obese lady you know why they haven't been a part of my wardrobe for the past 6 years. And don't even get me started on the woes of boot shopping with large calfs. I mean started and named my blog after an embarrassing boot shopping experience.
Who would have known, two things that 5 months ago I was almost positive I could never wear - I'm wearing!
Everyday I am gaining confidence in myself and the things I can do. I look in the mirror and smile, I decide to try on clothes even if they might not fit. I feel happier and it gives me great hope for the future and what it will bring. This journey is about so much more then results.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Weigh In 5/9/11
Lets start May out right!
(I'm sorry about the quality of this week's picture, the sun was peeking through the window at the exact wrong place and cut off my foot, and my lamp shade snuck into the top left corner, but you can still see most of the important stuff. Including my tan lines from being outside this weekend *woo hoo* it appears I may have gotten a but more sun than anticipated.)
I had been tracking everything this week, food, water, weight, exercise. I was consistently eating anywhere from 1400 to 1700 calories without really trying to count calories (which seems about right for me). I drank about 6 to 8 glasses of water, and had my normal moderate activity level. Other then tracking, I did nothing different from what I did the entire month of April.
And let me just say I am so relieved by this week's weigh in. To see 154 again and for real this time is so great. It makes me proud that even though I couldn't seem to make a loss in April that my hard work paid off, because I didn't do anything different this week and somehow lost 3.4 lbs. I swear my body is so weird the way it works, but at least I know it's working.
I'm getting so close to 150 I can taste it. I cannot wait. I have decided that at 150 I will reward my hard work with a much needed hair cut. I know I blurr it out but if you notice each week the blur gets bigger and bigger (lol). It will be my 20lb loss present to myself. Hopefully I will get it in another week or two. I also cannot really recall the last time I was 150lbs. It had to be some time in high school because I saw one of my old IDs from when I was 16 ( 8 years ago!!!) and my weight said 150. So it will be super fun to be back to my high school weight.
As you can tell I'm on cloud nine this week with my results. I am excited to keep it up this week because I really need a haircut!
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I had been tracking everything this week, food, water, weight, exercise. I was consistently eating anywhere from 1400 to 1700 calories without really trying to count calories (which seems about right for me). I drank about 6 to 8 glasses of water, and had my normal moderate activity level. Other then tracking, I did nothing different from what I did the entire month of April.
And let me just say I am so relieved by this week's weigh in. To see 154 again and for real this time is so great. It makes me proud that even though I couldn't seem to make a loss in April that my hard work paid off, because I didn't do anything different this week and somehow lost 3.4 lbs. I swear my body is so weird the way it works, but at least I know it's working.
I'm getting so close to 150 I can taste it. I cannot wait. I have decided that at 150 I will reward my hard work with a much needed hair cut. I know I blurr it out but if you notice each week the blur gets bigger and bigger (lol). It will be my 20lb loss present to myself. Hopefully I will get it in another week or two. I also cannot really recall the last time I was 150lbs. It had to be some time in high school because I saw one of my old IDs from when I was 16 ( 8 years ago!!!) and my weight said 150. So it will be super fun to be back to my high school weight.
As you can tell I'm on cloud nine this week with my results. I am excited to keep it up this week because I really need a haircut!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Weigh In 5/2/11
Alright, alright. I know I am completely and utterly slacking this week. I should have posted this on Monday. I did take my photos weight and measurements on Monday but I was just too embarrassed to post my results. But someone mentioned last week that the point of my blog was to hold myself accountable so I had to buck up and just post this.
Here is my April review:
Yup, so there it is. For the entire month of April I lost nothing, in fact I gained weight, and I gained inches. I can even see it in the pictures. Total and complete failure. I have no freaking clue what I did wrong. I followed my diet and I exercised regularly. And all I see is a gain. How frustrating, it makes me grumpy that I passed on so many desserts and tasty morsels. Makes me think that maybe I could have eaten those things and seen the same result.
But like I said, I promised myself that I would see this through and by golly I will. I need to focus on my successes and not my failures.
Like my overall journey from the beginning of this blog:
Aaaah much better. I can handle that 13.8 lbs lost, minus 5% body fat. I need to use these stats to motivate me to keep at it. My plan has worked so far, and I just hit a terribly bad plateau. I am re-grouping this month. May is my re-charge. These next two weeks I will be recording everything I can, calories, water intake, weight ect. to see if I can find any trends that can help me avoid another month like this.
I also am looking into different diet plans, and exercise plans that may help jump start my body back into weight loss. I'm sorry to any of my viewers who look to me for motivation but please understand that this sort of thing happens to everyone and I am not giving up, nor slacking. I am trying my hardest, and just ran into a terrible month.
Luckily a new one has already started and I'm ready to take it head-on and finally get to the 150 I have been searching for for years now.
Thank you everyone for your support, and suggestions to get me through this. It really helps and makes me so glad that I decided to make my journey public on this blog.
Here is my April review:
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So I decided to skip my last weigh in, and I have a confession. I weighed in, I just was so sick at what I saw on the scale I couldn't bring myself to go through the ritual of recording and posting such a terrible result. Last week the scale was back up to 158, I couldn't possibly believe it. I mean, it was right after Easter but still, considering earlier that week I saw 154 on the scale (my lowest yet) I was just heartbroken to see that I had gained 4 lbs over a few days. I was hoping that maybe I was just on a swing so I tried to wait it out a week and see if I re-balanced and I didn't. I legitimately gained 4 lbs, and I am embarrassed.
Let's go ahead and wrap April up, because it was a total bust for me and I am ready to move on to bigger and better things in May.
Let's go ahead and wrap April up, because it was a total bust for me and I am ready to move on to bigger and better things in May.
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April 4 2011 | May 2 2011 | ||
| Weight: | 157.0 lbs | 157.8 lbs | (+.8) |
| Body Fat: | 31 % | 31% | (0) |
| Bust: | 36" | 37" | (+1) |
| Waist: | 29.25" | 29.5" | (+.25) |
| Hips: | 39.5" | 39" | (-.5) |
| Bicep: | 11.75" | 11.5" | (-.25) |
| Thigh: | 22.75" | 22.75" | (0) |
| Calf: | 15" | 14.75" | (-.25) |
Yup, so there it is. For the entire month of April I lost nothing, in fact I gained weight, and I gained inches. I can even see it in the pictures. Total and complete failure. I have no freaking clue what I did wrong. I followed my diet and I exercised regularly. And all I see is a gain. How frustrating, it makes me grumpy that I passed on so many desserts and tasty morsels. Makes me think that maybe I could have eaten those things and seen the same result.
But like I said, I promised myself that I would see this through and by golly I will. I need to focus on my successes and not my failures.
Like my overall journey from the beginning of this blog:
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January 1 2011 | May 2 2011 | ||
| Weight: | 171.6 lbs | 157.8 lbs | (-13.8) |
| Body Fat: | 36 % | 31% | (-5) |
| Bust: | 38.5" | 37" | (-1.5) |
| Waist: | 32" | 29.5" | (-2.5) |
| Hips: | 43" | 39" | (-4) |
| Bicep: | 12.75" | 11.5" | (-1.25) |
| Thigh: | 24" | 22.75" | (-1.25) |
| Calf: | 15.5" | 14.75" | (-.75) |
Aaaah much better. I can handle that 13.8 lbs lost, minus 5% body fat. I need to use these stats to motivate me to keep at it. My plan has worked so far, and I just hit a terribly bad plateau. I am re-grouping this month. May is my re-charge. These next two weeks I will be recording everything I can, calories, water intake, weight ect. to see if I can find any trends that can help me avoid another month like this.
I also am looking into different diet plans, and exercise plans that may help jump start my body back into weight loss. I'm sorry to any of my viewers who look to me for motivation but please understand that this sort of thing happens to everyone and I am not giving up, nor slacking. I am trying my hardest, and just ran into a terrible month.
Luckily a new one has already started and I'm ready to take it head-on and finally get to the 150 I have been searching for for years now.
Thank you everyone for your support, and suggestions to get me through this. It really helps and makes me so glad that I decided to make my journey public on this blog.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
No Weigh In
I have been back and fourth with myself over this and have come to the conclusion that I will not have a weigh in this week.
I had a terrible week last week, and I haven't been having a very good month and a half in general (in the way of weight loss). I feel defeated and discouraged and I just can't bring myself to get on the scale. Particularly because on Sunday I disregarded my diet and ate whatever I wanted and I know that the scale will reflect that and I just can't come to terms with it, especially since I am scared to see yet another gain.
I have been on the diet roller coaster for years, losing 10 or so here and there only to gain it back once things got hard. I have hit a plateau and I need to make sure that I push myself through this and not let it stop me. I have made a promise to myself that there is no turning back.
Sorry to anyone who was looking for my update, but my hope is that by skipping this week and weighing in next week perhaps I can focus more on keeping my resolve and sticking this out instead of being even more discouraged by the results on the scale. I sorta just want to skip over the rest of April and start over in May.
Please know that I have not given up, and I am still working my dangest to reach my goals. I just can't take the heart break of seeing another gain on the scale. Hopefully next week will have better news for me.
I had a terrible week last week, and I haven't been having a very good month and a half in general (in the way of weight loss). I feel defeated and discouraged and I just can't bring myself to get on the scale. Particularly because on Sunday I disregarded my diet and ate whatever I wanted and I know that the scale will reflect that and I just can't come to terms with it, especially since I am scared to see yet another gain.
I have been on the diet roller coaster for years, losing 10 or so here and there only to gain it back once things got hard. I have hit a plateau and I need to make sure that I push myself through this and not let it stop me. I have made a promise to myself that there is no turning back.
Sorry to anyone who was looking for my update, but my hope is that by skipping this week and weighing in next week perhaps I can focus more on keeping my resolve and sticking this out instead of being even more discouraged by the results on the scale. I sorta just want to skip over the rest of April and start over in May.
Please know that I have not given up, and I am still working my dangest to reach my goals. I just can't take the heart break of seeing another gain on the scale. Hopefully next week will have better news for me.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Weigh In 4/18/2010
So I actually did weight in yesterday. I measured and everything and filled in my chart and then really resisted the urge to post. Nothing can describe how I feel right now other then utter discouragement, I can't even bring myself to take photos this week (why since they will look the same - if not worse - then last week?).
Last week I was chipper because I thought that I was back on track, I was down to 156 and moving in the right direction. And then this week: yet another gain.
I really don't know what is going on. Why am I at this plateau when, I have only lost 15 lbs and I'm still "overweight" BMI? There really is no explanation. Why is it that what has been working for me for months now is just not working anymore? I have even upped my exercise and no dice. I just don't understand, period.
I need something to knock me over the edge and back on the downward slope. Another week without seeing 155 on the scale will just wreck me. I am already noticing myself falling back into old habits of insulting myself while standing in front of the mirror or finding my progress insufficient.
I don't want to be a downer, but it is just frustrating and heartbreaking. To want something so bad and to work for it, and not get it. Like all of those times I patted myself on the back for choosing a salad for lunch, or refusing to eat "just one piece/bite/taste" or not drinking at happy hour with friends - when I see a gain on the scale I just wish I had do it instead of abstaining so that I could say "well I did have that cupcake" ect. I just can't think of a reason that I am not losing.
I don't even want to think about the horrible, horrible results the scale will bring next weekend. (Weigh in on Monday right after Sunday Easter celebrations).
I'm sorry to all of my followers for the scarcity of my posts recently, but I really hate reporting failure and lately that is all I have had to report. I will try my best to re-set for May. I need a great month to make up for this one.
| *Last weeks pic* |
I really don't know what is going on. Why am I at this plateau when, I have only lost 15 lbs and I'm still "overweight" BMI? There really is no explanation. Why is it that what has been working for me for months now is just not working anymore? I have even upped my exercise and no dice. I just don't understand, period.
I need something to knock me over the edge and back on the downward slope. Another week without seeing 155 on the scale will just wreck me. I am already noticing myself falling back into old habits of insulting myself while standing in front of the mirror or finding my progress insufficient.
I don't want to be a downer, but it is just frustrating and heartbreaking. To want something so bad and to work for it, and not get it. Like all of those times I patted myself on the back for choosing a salad for lunch, or refusing to eat "just one piece/bite/taste" or not drinking at happy hour with friends - when I see a gain on the scale I just wish I had do it instead of abstaining so that I could say "well I did have that cupcake" ect. I just can't think of a reason that I am not losing.
I don't even want to think about the horrible, horrible results the scale will bring next weekend. (Weigh in on Monday right after Sunday Easter celebrations).
I'm sorry to all of my followers for the scarcity of my posts recently, but I really hate reporting failure and lately that is all I have had to report. I will try my best to re-set for May. I need a great month to make up for this one.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Weigh In 4/11/10
Wow, where did Monday go? Sorry to anyone who was expecting this post and didn't see it. I guess my Monday just got away from me. But without any further adieu (pics later tonight):
| *Last weeks pic, will update a new one later tonight* |
I am back down, to 156 and my measurements are still shrinking, so I know I am still on track. All things considered I am feeling pretty good about this week and my progress, but I do have concerns looming in the back of my mind...
So this is the fourth straight week in a row that I have been hovering between 156 and 157. It's quite frustrating, particularly because I totally jumped on the scale Sunday morning and saw 155, and last Thursday I saw 155. I know, I just know I can get down past this, but its proving so difficult.
It is also frustrating because for the past 4 months I have had a net loss of 1.6 lbs, that is definitely not on track to reach my goals. Slow and steady I know but I'm becoming worried that if it is so difficult for me to lose weight up in the "overweight" BMI range how will I ever manage to do it down past 150?
Side note this past Saturday was the wedding of one of my high school friends, and I got to reunite with a bunch of people from my past who have seen me at my smallest (and a few at my largest) and the general consensus was that I looked great. If that doesn't make me feel like floating I don't know what would. Maybe I will make a longer post about the event later this week.
So this is the fourth straight week in a row that I have been hovering between 156 and 157. It's quite frustrating, particularly because I totally jumped on the scale Sunday morning and saw 155, and last Thursday I saw 155. I know, I just know I can get down past this, but its proving so difficult.
It is also frustrating because for the past 4 months I have had a net loss of 1.6 lbs, that is definitely not on track to reach my goals. Slow and steady I know but I'm becoming worried that if it is so difficult for me to lose weight up in the "overweight" BMI range how will I ever manage to do it down past 150?
Side note this past Saturday was the wedding of one of my high school friends, and I got to reunite with a bunch of people from my past who have seen me at my smallest (and a few at my largest) and the general consensus was that I looked great. If that doesn't make me feel like floating I don't know what would. Maybe I will make a longer post about the event later this week.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Weight Loss and Television
Now, I have to admit, I am a huge "weight loss show" junkie. Any show that has anything to do with the contestants losing weight and transforming their bodies - I must watch it. I am like an addict to results, something about seeing someone transform in front of my eyes is like candy to me.
I'm sure most of you have either watched or at least heard of "The Biggest Loser", "Heavy", "I Used to be Fat", "Shedding for the Wedding", "Dance Your @$$ Off" (like 2 years ago now), "Celebrity Fit Club", "Ruby" and even "Dancing with the Stars" (Hello, did you see Kelly Osborne's transformation?!?!). It seems sort of obsessive when I list them out like that.
I just really adore being able to relate to the contestants and be inspired by them. Which is funny because at 185lbs some time 3 years ago I would sit down on the couch and watch the shows while shoveling chips down my gullet or making an entire package of Oreo cookies disappear. Luckily, I am no longer like that, I use the shows for entertainment and encouragement.
Sometimes I wish the shows would focus better on the HOW of it all, I mean 11 seasons into "The Biggest Loser" and the only thing you get from it is to eat Jenny-O Turkey Bacon, Subway and drink Brita water. I suppose you could copy some of the exercises you see the contestants doing, but they aren't really informative to viewers.
Anyways, the whole point of this post was a mini rant, so here goes:
*******************************SPOILER ALERT*******************************
Oh my goodness, last night's episode of The Biggest Loser made me so upset. I felt so bad for Courtney, I really thought she had what it takes to win the entire show, and it has just been really really sad to watch her results dwindle like they had. I was positive that she could lose at least 2 lbs, my heart goes out to her. I know she will finish strong and probably have amazing results to show at the finale but really. It is just disappointing to see her struggle like that.
I know it sounds bad but it almost makes me feel OK about my own struggles, like gaining .2 last week. I mean I was griping about how frustrated I was that my body was so reluctant to give away fat when I am still at least 20 lbs away from a "good weight". She is still in the 200's and has difficulty. But it still makes me angry about the whole stigma that shows, or weight loss experts, and health professionals always preach "Calories in versus Calories out". It clearly is not as cut and dry as that, and until people realize it and find the REAL equation to fat loss for their own personal body they will continue to have frustrations, just like me, and just like Courtney.
I think one of the things that upset me the most last night was Bret going home. I really liked Bret as a trainer, and really hope that this isn't the end for him. He was just super unlucky with weigh-ins, I don't think he failed at all. In fact at the beginning of the season when everyone was skeptical about getting him as a trainer I said everyone was insane because the trainer doesn't have any magic secrets, any trainer can get you into shape, all they need to do is push you to do better then you think you can (and he certainly did that). I mean Bob and Jillian aren't the masterminds behind every massive weight loss journey in the world - just look at the trainers on "Heavy" and "I Used to be Fat". I would hate to see people think that having the right trainer is the secret, or that Bret is not good at what he does because his contestants couldn't stay in the competition.
****************************END SPOILER ALERT****************************
So I guess my moral of the story is to use the shows as inspiration and motivation. Having a personal trainer is great but it isn't the secret to weight lose. Which also brings me to the point that nutrition is really the biggest and most important part of weight loss. Exercise is important, but without proper nutrition you will never reach your goals. And the most frustrating thing is that it isn't always as simple as "calories in minus calories out". You have to figure out the right formula for your own body to optimize your own weight loss but when you simplify it down to the nuts and bolts of it calories in - calories out is the big picture. Don't get frustrated and discouraged with bad weeks or the tiny details, because as long as you stick to your plan you will eventually get to where you need to be.
I'm sure most of you have either watched or at least heard of "The Biggest Loser", "Heavy", "I Used to be Fat", "Shedding for the Wedding", "Dance Your @$$ Off" (like 2 years ago now), "Celebrity Fit Club", "Ruby" and even "Dancing with the Stars" (Hello, did you see Kelly Osborne's transformation?!?!). It seems sort of obsessive when I list them out like that.
I just really adore being able to relate to the contestants and be inspired by them. Which is funny because at 185lbs some time 3 years ago I would sit down on the couch and watch the shows while shoveling chips down my gullet or making an entire package of Oreo cookies disappear. Luckily, I am no longer like that, I use the shows for entertainment and encouragement.
Sometimes I wish the shows would focus better on the HOW of it all, I mean 11 seasons into "The Biggest Loser" and the only thing you get from it is to eat Jenny-O Turkey Bacon, Subway and drink Brita water. I suppose you could copy some of the exercises you see the contestants doing, but they aren't really informative to viewers.
Anyways, the whole point of this post was a mini rant, so here goes:
*******************************SPOILER ALERT*******************************
Oh my goodness, last night's episode of The Biggest Loser made me so upset. I felt so bad for Courtney, I really thought she had what it takes to win the entire show, and it has just been really really sad to watch her results dwindle like they had. I was positive that she could lose at least 2 lbs, my heart goes out to her. I know she will finish strong and probably have amazing results to show at the finale but really. It is just disappointing to see her struggle like that.
I know it sounds bad but it almost makes me feel OK about my own struggles, like gaining .2 last week. I mean I was griping about how frustrated I was that my body was so reluctant to give away fat when I am still at least 20 lbs away from a "good weight". She is still in the 200's and has difficulty. But it still makes me angry about the whole stigma that shows, or weight loss experts, and health professionals always preach "Calories in versus Calories out". It clearly is not as cut and dry as that, and until people realize it and find the REAL equation to fat loss for their own personal body they will continue to have frustrations, just like me, and just like Courtney.
I think one of the things that upset me the most last night was Bret going home. I really liked Bret as a trainer, and really hope that this isn't the end for him. He was just super unlucky with weigh-ins, I don't think he failed at all. In fact at the beginning of the season when everyone was skeptical about getting him as a trainer I said everyone was insane because the trainer doesn't have any magic secrets, any trainer can get you into shape, all they need to do is push you to do better then you think you can (and he certainly did that). I mean Bob and Jillian aren't the masterminds behind every massive weight loss journey in the world - just look at the trainers on "Heavy" and "I Used to be Fat". I would hate to see people think that having the right trainer is the secret, or that Bret is not good at what he does because his contestants couldn't stay in the competition.
****************************END SPOILER ALERT****************************
So I guess my moral of the story is to use the shows as inspiration and motivation. Having a personal trainer is great but it isn't the secret to weight lose. Which also brings me to the point that nutrition is really the biggest and most important part of weight loss. Exercise is important, but without proper nutrition you will never reach your goals. And the most frustrating thing is that it isn't always as simple as "calories in minus calories out". You have to figure out the right formula for your own body to optimize your own weight loss but when you simplify it down to the nuts and bolts of it calories in - calories out is the big picture. Don't get frustrated and discouraged with bad weeks or the tiny details, because as long as you stick to your plan you will eventually get to where you need to be.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Weigh In 4/4/11
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Well so much for April being my first month without a gain. What a way to start the month huh? Luckily +.2 lbs is a manageable gain, but still frustrating. I think the most frustrating thing is that I am not at a "good" weight for my height so why is my body being so obstinate about giving up the weight. I mean I am eating right and exercising so why can't I lose?
I am a bit disheartened at how slow my progress has been, when I see people who weigh considerably less then me losing much more in a shorter period of time. I thought that losing 2 lbs a week would be a decent goal, but it seems that is just too hasty for my body. It hurts to see the reality of your goals, when you say "150 by April" and watch that goal slowly slip out of reach week by week.
As per usual here is my end of the month/ beginning of the month wrap up to remind myself of how far I have come and to motivate myself to keep on trucking.
And my overall journey from the beginning of this blog:
I am a bit disheartened at how slow my progress has been, when I see people who weigh considerably less then me losing much more in a shorter period of time. I thought that losing 2 lbs a week would be a decent goal, but it seems that is just too hasty for my body. It hurts to see the reality of your goals, when you say "150 by April" and watch that goal slowly slip out of reach week by week.
As per usual here is my end of the month/ beginning of the month wrap up to remind myself of how far I have come and to motivate myself to keep on trucking.
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February 28 2011 | April 4 2011 | ||
| Weight: | 160.4 lbs | 157.0 lbs | (-3.4) |
| Body Fat: | 32 % | 31% | (-1) |
| Bust: | 37.75" | 36" | (-1.75) |
| Waist: | 30" | 29.25" | (-.75) |
| Hips: | 40.5" | 39.5" | (-1) |
| Bicep: | 11.75" | 11.75" | (0) |
| Thigh: | 23.75" | 22.75" | (-1) |
| Calf: | 15" | 15" | (0) |
And my overall journey from the beginning of this blog:
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January 1 2011 | April 4 2011 | ||
| Weight: | 171.6 lbs | 157.0 lbs | (-14.6) |
| Body Fat: | 36 % | 31% | (-5) |
| Bust: | 38.5" | 36" | (-2.5) |
| Waist: | 32" | 29.25" | (-2.75) |
| Hips: | 43" | 39.5" | (-3.5) |
| Bicep: | 12.75" | 11.75" | (-1) |
| Thigh: | 24" | 22.75" | (-1.25) |
| Calf: | 15.5" | 15" | (-.5) |
3.4lbs for March sucks! I did 7 in February. Hopefully this means April will be another big month for me. *fingers crossed*
Perhaps it is time I re-evaluate my goals. Shooting for an arbitrary number by an arbitrary date just seems to do more harm for me then good. I'd like to be proud of my progress each week no matter how small, so instead of shooting for a number for April, I want to get through the rest of April and May with no gains. I think that is a better goal for me right now.
But look at that 14.6lbs lost since January! Rounding up to 15lbs and thats 5 lbs a month average for me. Thats not too shabby, I definitely notice the change in my body and particularly in the way my clothing fit. Like my Christmas clothing no longer fit me, I guess this means a new wardrobe for the summer!
The silver lining in all of this is no matter how slow I lose, the point is I am still losing. And that I will eventually get to where I want to and need to be by sticking with my plan and not giving up or letting small slip ups ruin a good week.
Heres to an Awesome April worth of weight loss!
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